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2015 Reflections, 2016 Resolutions

I was fairly loathe to write a "Resolutions" post as they tend to bore the absolute tits off me. Who cares if you plan on eating more kale and less cream? You probably won't anyway

But on a personal level I thought I'd take a look back at what I stated as my intentions for the past 365 days. These included:

Stops stifling my creativity
Stop shopping in Primark
Start getting fit
Stop buying nude lipsticks
Have more sex

I definitely don't think I've stifled my creativity this year. Don't get me wrong, my full potential is far from being reached because there's still way more time then I'd like spent lying around in my pants watching documentaries. But I have pushed myself to work outside of my usual creative mediums and comfort zones by taking part in fashion shoots and videography work. At times these creative projects have taken me away from my blog in a strangely contradictory way but this year I hope to redress the balance and spread my time more evenly over my various projects and blogging engaging content  more consistently 

I still shop in Primark for the following things,
Argan Oil
Hair Slides
Colourful Socks
Other than that I've managed to resist the aisles of temptation, saving my pennies for higher end purchases instead of spunking my finance on miscellaneous junk

I left the whole "getting fit" thing until rather late in the year (sorry summer bod) but I am now firmly on board the gym trip. I actually enjoy running! It's a real struggle for me to put on weight, yep I'm one of those irritating "Oh I forgot to eat" twig bitches but my programme of minimal cardio and maximum weights is already proving effective. Also I have the temper of an unmedicated psychopath so taking out my frustration on my own abs is hugely helpful to my overall mental well-being and prevents me from violently assaulting the fucktards I have to encounter on a daily basis 

 I bought like 7 nude lipsticks this year and am I sorry? Hell no. I don't actually know why I set that as a goal when I 100% ROCK a nude lip. That resolution is going in the bin. Long live nude #nudelife

It actually makes me cringe so hard that I wrote "have more sex" as a resolution. Sure, have that as a resolution but that should definitely have been filed under the "things to keep in my head and not to articulate to the entire globe" category. But yes. Resolution achieved, how else do you think I amused myself during the final 11 minutes of 2015 after a bottle of wine? 



So what about this year?

I am going to break down my resolutions for 2016 into the following categories

Big Goal 
Finish something. Anything. One of the seven books I've been writing since 2004 perhaps? My collection of confessional poetry and essays? My Business plan? Just generally to stop being so flaky, flitting from one literary project to another like a lunatic butterfly. Publishers don't like that

Medium Goal
Look after myself mentally, physically and emotionally. Mental stimulation largely comes from my work, we covered that above. Physically I'll be back at the gym as soon as humanly possible once this seasonal cold has withdrawn and the use of my left nostril has been returned to me. The aim is to run a 10K this year as I'm weirdly enjoying the treadmill, yes really (written whilst eating a McDonalds bagel... fail) Emotionally I came a LONG way in 2015. I entered the year a nervous, anxious wreck, at times unable to even leave the house as the crippling panic gripped me. Somewhere around April a deep calm descended and I started to change my mindset to a solely positive and happy outlook. Society conditions us to be judgmental of others and to pour scorn upon ideas and lifestyles that are different to our own but life is so much easier if you don't think like that. Over the past 8 moths I've worked hard at reconditioning my thought processes, opening my mind and most importantly to blocking anything that doesn't improve my mental state. 2016 is another year of work on the project I call "My Positive Mind"

Small Goal
I want to improve my photography. Photography is yet another of my creative outlets (hobbies that help me keep my shit together) and the arrival of my Olympus Pen camera and 45mm lens changed my life. I consider my photography to be a form of visual journalism and being able to translate my thoughts and emotions into an image is an amazingly cathartic thing to do. I've always been a big fan of Instagram as a theatre for my creative work, somewhere to disclose projects and capture moments of experience but recently I've felt a little disengaged by the superficial nature of the platform. It all began to feel a little bit disingenuous so alongside my images I'll now be posting short contextual paragraphs to help my followers understand the story or thought-process behind the images I post rather than "Here's my toast"







Wishing all my readers, followers, supporters and everyone I've had the good fortune to work with this year a very happy 2016



6 comments:

  1. I love this post! I want to look after myself this year too, because I definitely neglected myself in 2015, oops

    Lilies and Lipbalm
    xx

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  2. I think a never ending goal, as a blogger, is to improve your photography - that sure is one for me. I hope you manage these, good luck! xx

    Jasmine || http://www.blogsallbeautyy.blogspot.co.uk

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  3. Great post. I never make resolutions because why bother. I never keep them. My goals are to improve my photography too. I might even go on a course? And to finish something as like you I have unfinished stuff everywhere... As for the more sex, it made me chuckle but here here. Happy new year - as always abit late to the table xx

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  4. Great post. I never make resolutions because why bother. I never keep them. My goals are to improve my photography too. I might even go on a course? And to finish something as like you I have unfinished stuff everywhere... As for the more sex, it made me chuckle but here here. Happy new year - as always abit late to the table xx

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  5. Love how honest this post is! I think photography is something that all bloggers never feel they have truly perfected, I know I sure have a long way to go but the Olympus Pen looks amazing! Hope you achieve all your goals for this year xx

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